Wednesday, October 20, 2010

"Keep falsehood and lies far from me;

give me neither poverty nor riches, but give me only my daily bread.

Otherwise, I may have too much and disown you and say, 'Who is the LORD ?'

Or I may become poor and steal, and so dishonor the name of my God"

Proverbs 30:8-9

This proverb is hauntingly true to the prayer of my heart at the moment. This verse has such insight into the human mind. If I have plenty of money, there is no need for me to be dependent on the Lord the way I am dependent when I am wondering how I am going to be able to make rent and still be able to eat the following week. It's funny to me how abundance of money can make one dishonor God by not being dependent on him and the lack of money can dishonor the name of God by causing one to steal or not trust Him to provide, but just enough daily, satisfies the soul. I am finding that this concept isn't just true of money, but also of grace, patience, joy, contentment and love.

Searching for a job I've found, is quite a discouraging thing (at least it has been in my case). Daily submitting resumes, filling out applications, attending interviews... "selling" myself to someone about why they should hire me. It's humbling for sure.

Part of me says, ENOUGH! enough of this "humbling"!! But, i know, to be humble is to be like Jesus, so i find myself at the end of the day saying, "ok, Lord, I will keep going. Thank you for the lessons today. 'Keep falsehood and lies far from me; give me neither poverty nor riches, but give me only my daily bread. Otherwise, I may have too much and disown you and say, 'Who is the LORD? Or I may become poor and steal, and so dishonor the name of my God' "